Therapist/counsellor Pleasured Himself During A Virtual Therapy Session

about 3 years ago, I (currently 23F) had a introductory psychotherapy session through a program associated with my mom’s insurance. it was a virtual session and the counsellor was an old man. I have complex mental health issues and had arrived to the appointment with many things to discuss and had shared my goals and objectives for therapy. The counsellor was very fixated on “stress” although this was not really something I had mentionned (at the time I was struggling with severe depression and issues associated with being neurodivergent). I figured maybe since it was through my mom’s work that the counsellors were very workplace stress-oriented. from what I remember, he really didn’t have much to say regarding my concerns, he would just say “ok, so for now let’s work on stress.” at the end of the appointment he suggested that I do a mindfulness exercise which I didn’t really care to do but accepted anyway. I just wanted it to be over because I was finding him super unhelpful. his instructions were to close my eyes and absolutely not open them until he rang this little bell he had on his desk. he repeatedly stressed the importance of not opening my eyes until he rang the bell which already at the time I had found odd. I had done mindfulness exercises before in therapy and usually there was a bit more intention involved than just closing my eyes for a while. I closed my eyes and he told me to focus on the piano music that he played. I couldn’t even really hear the music over the sound of him shuffling around and breathing pretty heavily. my memory gets fuzzier here but I remember peeking and seeing that his hands were under his desk. the exercise dragged on forever and when I finally opened my eyes he had a really nasty grin on his face. I realized what had happened and I ended the appointment as quickly as possible and never contacted the therapist again. I felt so uncomfortable because I had spent the whole appointment talking about how miserable I’d been. I was even crying at times. I tried to not think about it and moved on. now a few years later, I was having a conversation with a friend about our worst therapy experiences and it came to mind for the first time in awhile. I looked up the counsellor and from what I saw I think he is still practicing, as a family counsellor which really worries me because he might be working with kids. I feel very guilty like I should have done something sooner. I feel like there is nothing that I can do now unless the virtual session was recorded and I am not sure if it was. is there anything I can do about this ?? thanks in advance for the advice :) also FYI this was all in canada
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