(metta Forest Is My Favorite Monastery) Nervous Breakdowns Lately Alot. I Want To Stop Talking To My Son's Mother. Is It Ok To Do So?

My son came home from the hospital with me and i have raised him since myself basically. His Mom would like the welfare he brings, she would like the section 8 assistance it provides, she would even like to have him but she doesn't want my help or involvement.

When speaking to her she rarely speaks to her son. Usually when I'm doing well and i give her son the phone. he is five and she is deaf and he texts her. she asks very little of him and sends nothing to him and has refused two rides to come here and wont plan to come here.

Should I stop talking to her? She did coke and dope during pregnancy (i smoke weed and have caffine. thats it.) which caused his twin brother to die.

Also lately ive been having bad nervous breakdowns because we have no Society like pretty much: no friends except an ex girlfriend who has a boyfriend and i want to stop talking to her too because she is a cheater and im a guy who needs his kid to have a lady around (and she does act kind and proper to my son btw).

I need admirable people. my son needs them.

I wouldnt care nearly so much if i was by myself but i cant be ok with how my son doesnt have that maternal support or social support.

Please: you guys have a better mind to help me than many. Instead of calling Ajann Geoff i guess id try here.

the real issue is i need time to be a man, he needs time to be a kid and we need productive things to do instead of be indoors all the time. i can't constantly play with him even at the capacity of a woman: i am a man and i Do Think, i do have endeavors.

My son is five and can multiply and read some words and divide and we talk about all sorts of things. He is learning well but we are so alone and it really hurts me and i think it isnt good for him.

we live in Frostburg Maryland. im 39.