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My Brothers Molested And Raped Me During My Childhood, And It's Been Ruining My Life Ever Since

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I'm not very familiar with Reddit so apologies if anything is off, but I would really appreciate help navigating this specific situation and any information or guidance on it is extremely helpful as I'm lost on this. I'm in my mid 20's F in Texas, and have been haunted my entire life with the fact that my older brothers molested and raped me from the time I was 5 to 13 in our household.

When I was 5 to 13 years, brother A (three years older than me) would meticulously expose me to imagery of male genitals, expose himself to me, try to force me to perform sexual acts on him, try to force penetration and for me to undress on multiple scenarios. When I was 8 - 10 and he was 11 - 13, he blindfolded me and forced oral penetration in his bedroom closet without my consent as well. (This happened in North Carolina.) And he stopped exposing himself and trying to force intimate actions when I was 13 because I told my parents, and they handled the situation. I had so many cases of being exposed to him and asked to do inappropriate things, as well as rigged stripping games and manipulation in order to try and let him penetration me more times than I can count.

When I was 12 or 13, I had brother B (he was 18 - 19) whom I would often go to our apartment complex pool with late at night. One night when we were in the pool, he jumped behind my back and wrapped his arms around me and fondled my breasts in a deliberate manner. I got him off of me, but when I looked behind he had an obvious boner and would duck under the water in the pool to try and look at between my legs, and my butt. I felt violated by him so I left the pool and went home and never returned to the pool or did anything alone with him again.

During my teens years, I had to process a lot of the trauma that occurred to me with my brothers, and would begin having nightmares and flashbacks of what happened in vivid detail. It was something that was never spoken about or acknowledged in my family, and the older I grew the more traumatized I was getting about what occurred to me between them. Everyday I'm reminded of what they've done to me and never spoke about this, and I wished I was about to get resources about this when I was younger.

My mother probed me about my childhood with my brothers last night, and for the first time in my life I've spoken up about the full extent of what happened to me with them. My mother validated my stories and details with things she remembered occuring during those times. My parents thought that I had only been asked to take my clothes off the times they were aware of it, so it was a lot to process that I'd been raped in such a meticulous and thought out way that spanned years.

My parents have been very supportive and urging me to continue forth with this in a way that helps me moves on. I'm going to go to counseling for the first time in my life because of this. My brothers have wives, and one of the has a child that is on the way, and they're unaware of this happening. I want to consider what options I might have legally about this in order to finally get justice of what occured to me and peace of mind.

My mother intends to confront them about what happened eventually and see if she can record audio of them admitting to what they did. Would I have a case about this with or without audio clips if I choose to persue this in court?

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