Severe Youtube Addiction Is Ruining My Life

My whole life I have watched way too much youtube, it started when I was like 10 and I was hooked instantly...
10-12 I really felt wierd and depressed kinda, I was slightly fat and I had body composition like a woman, a lot of fat in the butt, wide hips.. and mostly the problem in my head was that I don't have good social skills and im wierd and not as good as others, felt like a npc.

then at about 12 I started getting better a telling myself that im normal and thinking like that will just make me really be that person, and to this day I still have those thoughts but not delusions anymore its just a bit true but I don't worry about it, like I am ok now and much better

at 13 I was introduced to a girl we talked, we were never really together but we did do some stuff, I had no idea why she wanted me it was so wierd to me at that time.. It was really natural over text but when we were together irl it was really awkward and i thought its my fault and I really wanted to improve, so I started working doing calisthenics at home and doing self improvement, I took every chance to go out to get social skills so I could be confident and be good enough for her and from that point on to this day I have done self improvement many times (trying to quit youtube, fixing whatever was wrong at that time etc..) for some months and then fail and go back to my old ways. I always sticked to working out tho, and I go to the gym so my body is normal now (im 19 now)

anyway that thing with the girl ended and I was in hell in my head for a long time, but I really respect that girl now because if it wasn't for her I would have never improved anything.. So my main problems were always social skills, I allways had friends went out drinking and stuff but id rather be at home and watch youtube. all these years my brain was developing I was watching youtube for many hours per day, as much as I possibly could, probably never missed a day of watching youtube unless I physically couldn't because I was somewhere else..

The problem is I can't imagine life without youtube.. Like what would I do with my time? I've set many time limiters, quitted completely for short times.. I successfully quited youtube on my phone and I quitted tiktok/shorts/reels completely but that doesn't even make a dent. I watch youtube on computer but at least when I go to bed i can sleep without my home and my sleep schedule is good. My friends ask me to go out and I know thats good for me and I should go out but I just want to be at home and watch yt. I really love school because I hang out with my school friends and im used to it and I have to go there anyway so when I am there really fun but at home and on school vacations which we have a lot per year im glued to my chair.. I can't escape it.. I cant even bring myself to delete my data/use incognito mode so my algorithm doesn't know me anymore, I just cant imagine how I would live. I would get home, and sit in silence. The times i quit yt made me just use reddit other or other online things, play games. And I don't even want a girlfriend because that means you have to hang out with her, but id rather watch yt!! its fked up.. It often feels like my brain is someone else, I know what I have to do but my brain tells me no no no just watch youtube its more comfortable and I cant stop the dopamine from controlling me, for someone who is this far into this, is there even any way out? Just to say again, im good now mostly, im not depressed but my life is so average, I want to do more things, I want to spend time trying to learn to make money and do new things but I just can't do anything because youtube is there to make me so happy I can't resist it.. I tell myself ok just today no youtube, do something for school or whatever else, but I get home from school and gym I am not myself anymore.. whatever goals I had before are gone, because I can watch youtube and relax... even If i went away for 3 months to a camp or something, I know I would be so much better, I would be more social instantly but when I would come back I would just go back to my old self.. honestly I would rather be addicted to drugs (ive done a lot but was never addicted except nicotine) and be social, instead of being addicted to youtube. I want to get a job in coding because im good at it and im good at it because I always had a computer access when I was young, but If i could go back and stop myself from ever using a computer I would even if that means I can't get a job like that anymore. Is there any solution or is it over for me? I can live like this if I get a career but I will forever be miserable, and I really want to make a business / get rich or something after some time of having my own money and a job but I know that requires a lot of work which I will never do if I can watch youtube instead and be average